By Eric Beach
This morning I'm following some advice. I'm sitting silent. Feeling the emotions. I'm assigning no value to them. No labels of good or bad, just feeling where they rest in my body.
My eyes are tired. There is a slight burning sensation. There is a slight tightness in my chest that comes and goes. It feels likes anxiousness or excitement. I can't tell which. I feel impatience in my legs. There is a feeling of uncertainty sitting in my stomach. A touch of sadness/hopelessness is present in my brain. A feeling of desperation is in my eyes.
I have assigned no value to these feelings. Simply acknowledged their presence. It's a strange feeling just letting your emotions be. It's strange to not question their existence but to instead feel where they are. In doing so, I found I was able to let my body FEEL the emotion! This was a breakthrough! For all my healing, for all my progress, I've not felt emotion like this. I thought I had, but now I see just how much I intellectualized my emotion. I've called them out... I'm angry, which means I have an unmet expectation... I'm afraid, which means my body is preparing itself to run away from the danger or fight it... But thats just part of emotional intellegence.
It's important to understand the origins of emotion, but emotions are meant to be felt. I underestimated how our body experiences emotion. This morning I felt emotions in a way I've never done and I am so much better for it. Today is a good day.
We never stop learning. We never stop growing. The fallacy is that we do. Wisdom can only come through continued life experience and introspection. Stop learning, stop growing, and their will come a day where the world will deal its final blow. I for one, unashamedly admit I don't know it all and I never will. But, what I promise and hope for you is we never stop moving forward and we never stop learning. We stop being so certain about uncertain things and can be open to the idea that maybe we are wrong. When we are open, we can think critically. When we think critically we can grow. Lets grow.